It’s this incredibly vague area where everyone agrees it’s time to grow up and its acceptable to make mistakes…so long as they aren’t deemed overly immature or irresponsible because you’re 22 now so you’re supposed to be getting your head on straight.
Or something like that?
As T-Swift (or T-Swizzle, as I like it) has proclaimed “we’re happy, free, confused and lonely at the same time. It’s miserable and magical”…oh no. Miserable, I’ll agree…magical, not so much. I can’t even pinpoint how I feel at this stage of my life because I’m so damn overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions and plans.
You know how you catch yourself pondering life on almost every vacation you go to? I’m not sure why this phenomenon takes place, but I feel (at least for me) that it happens every time I stay in a place for a few days that isn’t my home. So, try to imagine what the hell I’m going through at this point in my life. I’m 22 with no idea who I’m supposed to be and I just moved to a place far away and I’m not busy anymore. I’m constantly comparing everything I’m experiencing here to everything I’ve experienced in my short 22 years of life. I’m also trying to soak in much more than the sun down here, but its overwhelming as all hell.
I guess I’m whining because I really have no idea what’s going on and I can’t determine if that’s okay or not. I’m trying to gauge if my peers are in a stable part in their life, but I can’t tell if they’re bs-ing the interweb or just avoiding the truth of life as well. Wah, being this whiny is for the birds. I just want to have life figured out because I LOATHE this learning curve bullshit.
Until next time ;]